When I was 21 years old I was engaged to be married and in my final quarter of college. Two months after we were engaged we found out we were pregnant.
I was scared, of many things. What were people going to think? What were our parents going to say? How would I go on with the life that I had planned? I was ashamed. I felt alone. I didn’t know who to talk to or where to begin. I tried to believe it wasn’t true.
I prayed. I will honestly say that I prayed that I wasn’t pregnant. And as I write this I tear up because I remember exactly what God said back to me. He said, “You are pregnant, it is a girl, and it will be okay.”
I will never forget exactly where I was in that moment. At that point I knew how to move on, seek forgiveness, and take one day at a time.
I know now that all of the feelings that I felt, all of the struggles that I and my husband had to go through were worth it. Because every day we get to look at our beautiful 7-year-old daughter and see how much joy and love she has brought into our lives. She changed who we are; she changed us for the better.
Things did not go how we had planned but just because it was unplanned doesn’t mean that we love her any less. I read in a book once that “no matter what your parent’s circumstances were when you were born, you were planned. You were planned by someone far greater than your parents; you were planned by God.”
God has a way of blessing us in the most unexpected ways sometimes. My husband and I now have four children, all of whom are blessings from God and we are privileged to love. For anyone that has every faced an unexpected pregnancy, you are not alone. Your feelings are very normal and, believe me, some of the greatest blessings can come from some of the most unexpected things.